I met him few years back
it was love at first sight
we were best of friends and truest of lovers
soon after he protected me
not just from the world but from my freedom as well
I thought he did it out of the love for me
I accepted it in no time as I wanted to be his bride to be
Soon after I felt isolated
not just from the world but myself as well
what was bringing this change in me?
I thought I was becoming a lot like him
Soon after he took charge of my life
what to wear?
what to say?
he would dictate all away
I wasn’t sure if I wanted this forever
I thought I was becoming like him
Soon after we fought a lot
pity the issue better we fought
I lost the love for myself
I thought I was becoming like him
One fine day when I wouldn’t stand it all
I ran away from everyone
what was I doing?
what was I thinking?
I thought I have become a lot like him
he left me midway
maybe forced too
but now I was alone
no place to go
I fought with myself
I fought with the situation
not sure of where it would lead me
I thought I was becoming a lot like him
I met another man
after long I felt I could love again
he cared for me
he loved me enough
but somewhere at the back of my mind
I was sure I had become like him
The constant complaints I had
the constant craving for attention I longed
what was it?
I thought I had become a lot like him
One fine day when I thought
we would talk about the future ahead
he laughed at me and said
yes! you have become HIM
not just a lot but….HIM
the constant crying, the complaints, the chatter
wasn’t all jolly anymore
and I was sure I had become him
we both have dreams
we both have goals
we are reading a book
although not the same anymore
it struck me then
how much both of them affected me
one in a good while one in a bad way
yes I have become a lot like him
Don’t want to lose you – I said
not sure if you had me in the first place – he exclaimed
I laugh at myself now
how can one destroy or mend the other
either way I loved and lost
whether it was by choice or not
now I make merry with the fact
that I have lost myself to become either of them
Very touching!
Keep writing!