My current debate

Will I pass this? I worry,
Many times, I feel lonely.

Self confidence, I am mislaid,
Redemption, soon must be underway.

A new phase, a new beginning,
Uncertainty raises, all these feelings.

Though known, yet unknown the circumstances,
I still believe, life gives many chances.

A journey, I must embark now,
Old is gold, with the meaning lost.

Patience is the key, to this invisible lock,
Mockery mustn’t stop you, let them mock.

Mistakes happen, so you can learn,
Little joys of life, and the fun.

I fight in my mind, has raged a war,
I’m unable to determine, the fatal cause.

Perfection or emotion, want to defeat the other,
How should I convince myself, they need each other.

Words pouring, in this rhyme,
Hope they answer, to my plight